The Only Moment We Were Alone
I stood at the foot of his hospital bed, 13 years old and completely unaware of the magnitude of the moment.
My grandfather had been there since day one, as I lived with he and my grandmother while my Mother finished school. He took me to work with him, he played monster trucks with me and he was the one who tucked me in at night… He was my best friend in the entire world.
You don’t comprehend death at 13, although you are probably old enough to do so. In my eyes he was a rock, unbreakable. In my eyes he’d be with me forever.
So when I stood at the foot of his hospital bed, the only time I was ever in his room alone with him, I didn’t know what to say when it was time leave.
In my heart I know he knew how much I loved him but I only could muster “I’ll come back and see you later” because in my mind, he would still be there when I returned.
Unfortunately, he wasn’t.
If I had my life to live all over again, there isn’t much I would do differently. However, if I could just get back that 1 second in which I made up my mind as to what I should say, I would have said “I Love You.” Because I did. And I do.
Always will.
i lost my grandmother when i was 9 and you’re right you really do not comprehend death at that early of an age
May he continue to rest in peace
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Your concept for this blog is wonderful. I will certainly come back and I wish you well with it.
There are so many times in our lives when we do not say something, or say the ‘wrong’ thing. This is an opportunity for people to perhaps ease their mind and I am sure you will have lots of stories heading your way.
This will be an emotional blog.
Sorry I should have said in the above comment – you should put up a join my email list widget ‘thingie’ so people can get back to you easily
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I really appreciate the help! I just added an E-mail widget, great advice! I hope I can continue to make progress and hopefully give you guys all something worth reading.
You’re doing a wonderful job so far, keep doing what you’re doing and remember you’re only one person, people who love your stories will keep coming back even if your posts are spread out.